The Endless State of Engagement

As much as I love Michael, and as much as I love the fact that I'm going to marry him, I hate being engaged. Planning a wedding. Not fun. Not easy. Planning a wedding while going to school and working. Nearly impossible.

Not only are we busy trying to get all of these things ready, but we are also finding that learning to work with someone else is hard. When it's just you you can do what you want. You don't have to think about how your actions will affect someone else. I mean you should, but you don't have too.

Well, being engaged means thinking of the other person and thinking of the future in every decision you make. People should think of those things anyway, but when you are planning and preparing for a life with someone it makes it even more important.

I think one of the things my betrothed and have a problem with is that in our time as single people we have become somewhat unmoldable. We were so focused on becoming someone and being that person no matter what someone else said or thought that it makes change hard now. We are both learning how to change how we've functioned for so long to fit another person into it. It's hard, but once we figure it out things will run a lot smoother. Decisions will be made better and stress will be dealt with more effectively.

Even though this time of my life is hard I don't think I'd give it up. We are learning a lot about each other, most good, some not so good, we are learning a lot about us as a couple, and we are growing in love. I'm so grateful for Michael and the patience he has for me and the compassion he shows. He is such a great blessing in my life. Here's to 53 more days of frustrating betrothment, then a lifetime of finally being out of this state of engagement.