Dancing
As you, my tender reader, may know I love love LOVE to dance. Now back in high school I would go to school dances and I would always feel so awkward. I remember watching those around me dance and being jealous at their "moves". It's not that they were spectacular dancers. They were just having fun and they didn't look stupid. When I danced I just felt stressed and embarrassed and I'm sure that I looked uncomfortable.
Well my freshman year of college I went on a date with Cadet Brad Jensen from my ROTC squad. We went to the concert for the opening of SpoonMe which turned into a dance party when the band left. For some reason unknown to man, woman, or child I didn't feel awkward. I danced and had fun. No one mocked my dancing (like others had before).
Time jump again. Last Friday my friends and I went to a BYU dance. Like that dance with Cadet Jensen I simply let myself feel the music and move. Well A girl we didn't know joined our little dancing circle. I saw in her the awkward feeling girl I used to be. She didn't look stupid, she just looked uncomfortable. Later on she mentioned to me that she thought I was a really good dancer. Apparently she had been watching me as I had done back in high school. I had become someone with "moves"!
I don't know how it happened, but it did. I became comfortable with the dancing. I think the problem was that I was afraid of risking looking stupid. So I guess I've become comfortable with the risk too. I take the risk, but I have fun with it. I just relax. So those of you who are like I was. "Feel the rhythm in your soul" (I think that's from DDR) and just have fun!
I'll never forget the time we went to a dance (I think Melissa was with us) and we saw some guys break dancing, and off to the side there were some girls bowing whilst saying, "We're not worthy." Your reaction, Whitney, was priceless. I think it was something like "Stupid freshman girls!"
ReplyDeleteYour blog entry triggered another memory that I just recalled. One time at a dance, you asked if I'd do a slow dance with you. ONE OF THE FEW REGRETS AT BYU I EVER HAD WAS REJECTING YOUR REQUEST. I should have just danced with you. I don't know why I was being retarded/shy then.
ReplyDeleteWhitney, you're a total cutie and I bet you're a great dancer.
ReplyDeleteDancing is all about confidence. If you don't have it, fake it, and people will love you for it.