The Test

“If I love you, I will need you, but I cannot trust you to stay. I will provoke you, blame you, and try to drive you away. So when you leave, I will know I was right all along.”

I feel this is what you are saying to me. I feel that you are presenting me with this test with a belief from the beginning that I will fail. Well I have something to say to you. You are lovable. I love you. Even when you try to drive me away I still love you and I still stay because I love you. The only problem is that I can only take so much. I've stayed this long. Let this be proof enough. I do love you so stop pushing me away and stop closing me out. Let the test be finished.

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