Hypaethral

Yeah you. I don't deserve to be treated like this. Do you hear me? I don't deserve it. I'm giving you the time I can right now and you should be grateful for that. Instead you mope and gripe and try to make me feel guilty. Well you know what, I don't. I'm not doing anything wrong. Sure I care about you so I don't like that you are unhappy, but it's not my fault. It's your fault. You choose to be unhappy. "Men are disturbed not by things, but by the views which they take of things." I blame you for your unhappiness and I blame you for the way you are treating me. I don't deserve to be treated this way and I know it, so shape up.

“If I love you, I will need you, but I cannot trust you to stay. I will provoke you, blame you, and try to drive you away. So when you leave, I will know I was right all along.” I feel this is what you are saying to me. I feel that you are presenting me with this test with a belief from the beginning that I will fail. Well I have something to say to you. You are lovable. I love you. Even when you try to drive me away I still love you and I still stay because I love you. The only problem is that I can only take so much. I've stayed this long. Let this be proof enough. I do love you so stop pushing me away and stop closing me out. Let the test be finished.

I freaking love the snow! It feels so magical and Christmasy. It makes me think about falling in love. As I walk around campus through the sparkling snow as is falls glittering through the air I can't help it as my mind wanders into a day dream. I see myself is an elegant older styled winter dress with a cape and a muff. I'm perched in a horse drawn sleigh that is driven by a very sharply dressed man. It's snowing and we are riding past a forest as we laugh and just have a merry time. I also envision nighttime and the streets are covered with snow. It's late so no one is really out. I'm walking down the street while it snows hand in hand with a dashing gentleman. The street is lit by the faint orange streetlights and we just frolic and skip and play in the snow. That sounds wonderful. I love snow. :)

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Don't be sad if you don't understand the post title. Only Jen would. Anyway this is a lovely post about google.com. Google is so awesome! First of all here are all of the variations of google I have been able to find: google.com - Here is your run of the mill google googlegooglegooglegoogle.com - this will open up four googles within one window. mysterygoogle.com - This shows you what the person before you searched. givoogle.com - Advertisers pay google for every 1000 people who see their banner ad and google donates that money to fight cancer thatsloco.com - formally known as googleloco.com doogle.org - Irish google elgoog.rb-hosting.de/index.cgi - Mirrored google blackle.com - with a black screen designed to save energy. namegoogle.com - you can change the logo to whatever you want. shinysearch.com - create a customized google search page. baigle.com - greek? scenekidsearch.com - "A search engine made specifically for scene kids." 600673.com - Google in leet sea...