Because I need a distraction from something I told someone I wouldn't do... (long title...)

I wonder what he's doing right now. He's probably at work. He's such a hard worker. That's something I really admire about him. He really is amazing you know. I wish he knew that. I tell him as often as I can, but I'm not sure it sinks in. Whenever I tell him he gets this little smile on his face then averts his eyes in a bashful sort of way. It's endearing. Heck, nearly everything about him is endearing. My favorite is his smile. When he smiles his cheeks dimple and frame his mouth and his eyes light giving the brown a bit of sparkle. Ah and then his laugh. His laugh is one of the most wonderful joyous sounds I have ever heard. It's like his smile just bursts.
I wonder who he's with right now. They get to see his smile and hear his laugh. They don't know what they've got. I wonder what he talks about with them. With me it's anything and everything, but what about with them? There's so much I don't know about him, yet I feel like I could know no one better.
He is such a wonderful friend, you know. He's there when I need him and he's always willing to listen to my crap or my random useless stories. I wonder if he even enjoys them. He acts like he does sometimes. He never really talks about himself though. I can read his general feelings, but he never tells me about his thoughts or his... I don't know. More specific emotions I guess. A lot of times when we talk it feels very surface and fake. It doesn't let me know him very well. I guess all I can do is just keep probing. That what I feel like I do.
I feel like a researcher studying a new species. The new species doesn't talk. Instead I have to ask the question in the right way at the right time while it's in the right mood and maybe through my past research I will uncover the truth in the cryptic answer I receive. However, I do love puzzles. Maybe that's why this works. And by 'this' I mean our friendship.
Whatever...I grateful for this boy. Sure sometimes he makes me so angry or sometimes I shed a few tears on his behalf, but I need that. If I didn't have that I would never appreciate the good times. Since I've been through the lows I can now love the highs even more.
He is so amazing. I hope he sees that.