Plans

"The best laid plans of mice and men often go astray."

(Okay so I know that this is technically misquoted, but this is how everyone knows it.)

Lately it seems that all of my plans are falling through. Big one like becoming a veterinarian, but small ones too. For the past three Saturdays Kendall and I have been planning to go hiking up a canyon in Lindon (I think). Every week I get my hopes up that it will happen and every week my hopes are dashed. The first week Kendall and I were going to hike the canyon then attend the Greek Festival in Salt Lake City. He backed out on the whole day then spent a large amount of hours with another friend. The second week we had planned to go hiking then make dinner together. Kendall came and proclaimed that he was to tired. We watched TV until dinner time ate dinner then he left early to spend time with other friends. And finally this Saturday I wasn't even going to try. I was going to go hiking with some friends up the Y instead, but then Kendall suggested that we hang out that day so I told the other friends to go without me and planned a day with Kendall. We were supposed to go to the Victorian Art Exhibit at the MOA, hike the canyon, then eat dinner together. Well last second he decided to postpone our activities until seven tonight. The MOA closes at five, it will be too dark to hike, and he'll probably eat dinner before he comes. So now I'm sitting at my apartment all alone because everyone else is hiking the Y without me because I was supposed to go hiking with Kendall. It is so frustrating. And just last Wednesday he agreed to go to go to True Blue football with me which happens once a year and then have dinner with me. I found someone to come into work early for me so I could make it in time, but when I called him he pleaded hungry and stayed home to eat dinner then came over. We missed true blue football and he had already eaten that night. It's really rude to cancel on people at such short notice. I clear huge chunks of time because of the plans we made, but he doesn't bother to do the same and doesn't bother to give me notice that he won't be able to come so then I'm left with nothing to do because I've told everyone else that I have plans. This really makes me feel like he's avoiding me and it hurts. I know that if he had plans with his new friends, (even just plans to hang out and do nothing) he wouldn't cancel on them. He would brush off everything else in order to not disappoint them, but when I get my hopes up and I'm excited to just spend time with him and have fun with him, it doesn't matter if my hopes are dashed and I'm left alone. It's hard to have a friendship when only one person is trying.